Life

I have so many different desires right now. I'm confused with how to go where I want to. I want to spend my life in Vancouver, the one place that means the most to me. But I'm concerned with what could ultimately occur. I'm worried that I will lack the right amount of money to survive there. But what's more important? Being in the place I love the most, with the person I love the most, and letting money come to me.. Or Being somewhere I hate, with people I don't really like, but with a lot of money. Money? Love? Which is more important? Love. What a strange little emotion. Rather, what a strange ginormous emotion. All I do throughout my life I have to make sure that love is somewhere in the equation. As cliche, and sad as that is, love is the one thing in life that I don't know whether I could live without. I find myself meeting so many different situations where love finds me. I feel as though I need to have someone there. Is that such a bad thing? I find myself trying to decipher who would be best for me. And what would be best for me. So confused.

But you talk so loud, that it calms me down.

"But you talk so loud, that it calms me down."
A lyric that honestly describes my situation to the fullest.
I'm currently infatuated by one of the most obnoxious guys I know.
Why? Is it that whole bad boy image? The idea that he has a mystery behind him?
It all sounds like such a movie to me. The innocent girl goes after the guy that

no one else would, and feels as if she can change him somehow. Is it possible?
Possible to change a human being to your certain liking? I think not. I personally
think that's pure narcissism. But then again, he's changed me. I know it's insane to think
him? HE? THAT? how could HE change anyone? How could THAT make anyone BETTER?
When "he's already such an idiot". It's hard to believe but he's making me a better person.

He's making me the person I want to be. I've never liked a guy before who believes in God.
Every guy I've dated has been atheist and this time, it's the opposite. He believes in God, He believes in Jesus. He believes that being yourself is the only way. And if you lean on others for every single thing, you've failed at life. I've started to believe in the same things, without us even dating he's making me a better person. Other guys will tell me they like me, or any other junk and it'll be all worthless. Cause I know for certain a day, or a week later they will change their opinions. Or they'll slowly fade away from being interested in me. It happens, all the time.

But this one boy in particular is different, he is just what I'm looking for. I don't even care right now if we don't date. All I care is that I can make him happy, and at the same time be made into a better person. And so far so good.

Cliche Love Song

I wait til the sun
Only chance to run
Forget about the lies
When I look at the skies

You're driving me mad
Miss what we had
Let it all fly away
Shoulda' made you stay

[chorus]
'Ya make me feel alright
Gotta hold you tight
You're all I need tonight
In darkness, you're my sight.

I gotta let you know
Give you time to grow
But I can guarrentee
that we're supposed to be.

[chorus]
'Ya make me feel alright
Gotta hold you tight
You're all I need tonight
In darkness, you're my sight.

Just gotta wait
Hope I'm not too late
I like the way
You make me say

[chorus]
'Ya make me feel alright
Gotta hold you tight
You're all I need tonight
In darkness, you're my sight.

{bridge}
I must admit
Know you can't commit
Gotta nasty habit
Of not giving a shit

[chorus]
'Ya make me feel alright
Gotta hold you tight
You're all I need tonight
In darkness, you're my sight. x2

Forget Me Not

I don't care what you say
With him I feel at home.
But does he feel this way?
Or would he rather be alone

The harder I try
The harder this gets
He's the one type of guy
that I won't ever forget.

He's the dream
that I keep seeing.
The song that
I keep singing.

Forget me not,
must I treasure these thoughts?
How must I obey my heart,
When my mind is the one who
truly understands the reason
that I feel this strongly about him.

I look over, and I see his shadow.
I feel the obligation to be there; always.
Just as the display I just witnessed.
I just know if he were to hear this,
and to hear it with his own ears.

Instead of behind all the drunken slurs
that instead of the same obligation,
he would rather make excuses and
rants about how hard it is for him.
Does he not realize that my thoughts
also are of the same ideals?

Blissfully, this could be the hardest experience.
Hardest part, is that this shouldn't even be something
that I'm even worried about.
One individual, One Soul, One Personality.
Why does this one strike me as different?
Why is it to me that I think he's so interesting?

"Only time can answer all your questions"
I just can't stand waiting any longer.
Time is only one element of all that could be.
Why do I have to wait for this conclusion?
Only if the conclusion is gratifying shall I
truly believe that this term is true.

Hallucinogenic Love

It's basically like a hallucination, this feeling that I keep getting over you.
How is it possible to like someone so much? And to like them after everything
my peers complain about him? Everyone says he's "obnoxious, loud, annoying"
But I totally don't see that. Maybe I will eventually, but right now I honestly can't
get enough of him. For some silly reason whenever I see him my heart feels like it's smiling.
I totally understand that he's not looking for a relationship. I'm in the exact same boat right now.
Just for some reason I can't get my mind off him, and when my mind is on him I always seem to crack a smile. Everything about him just makes me go crazy! Maybe it's something to do with that
"bad boy" image. But seriously, when he kissed me I could not get enough of him. I never wanted it to end. I really can't get over this! He's amazing, and I know if we were to be together I would try my hardest to make him as happy as he could ever be. Only because he deserves it.

Freeze

She met a boy
Down in Illinois
That boy he changed her
For the better
She knew she couldn't waste
another moment, without the taste
of his lips on hers.

chorus
baby lets freeze time, i wanna make
you mine. i wanna show you how i feel
cause our love is real

she said lets stay together baby
i feel lighter than a feather.
she said his eyes made her realize
that everything feels right, tonight.

chorus
baby lets freeze time, i wanna make
you mine. i wanna show you how i feel
cause our love is real

bridge
take me away from the rest
lock the doors from the guests
i wanna be with you and only you

chorus
baby lets freeze time, i wanna make
you mine. i wanna show you how i feel
cause our love is real

The years, went by so fast.
still she spends her days as if they were the last.
she still spends every moment she has
with that boy who changed her
for the better..

Without You

V1

I woke up one morning
My life started to turn
Came to a conclusion
You aint no illusion

V2

This is so right
the way I feel tonight
I wish you were by my side
Baby, Just take me for a ride.

Chorus

I'm wasting my time
And I'm so tired
Of being without you.

V3

Hold on, for me
Baby, can't you see
I'm head over heels
Can't believe how I'm feelin' .

Chorus

I'm wasting my time
And I'm so tired
Of being without you.

Bridge

Wanna feel your arms
Wrapped around me
Wanna hear your charm
And let it set me free.


Chorus

I'm wasting my time
And I'm so tired
Of being without you.

V4

This is how it should be.
Just you and I , Baby.
I've heard it before.
But you're what I've
waited for.


Chorus

I'm wasting my time
And I'm so tired
Of being without you.

Outro

I woke up one morning..