"But you talk so loud, that it calms me down."
A lyric that honestly describes my situation to the fullest.
I'm currently infatuated by one of the most obnoxious guys I know.
Why? Is it that whole bad boy image? The idea that he has a mystery behind him?
It all sounds like such a movie to me. The innocent girl goes after the guy that
no one else would, and feels as if she can change him somehow. Is it possible?
Possible to change a human being to your certain liking? I think not. I personally
think that's pure narcissism. But then again, he's changed me. I know it's insane to think
him? HE? THAT? how could HE change anyone? How could THAT make anyone BETTER?
When "he's already such an idiot". It's hard to believe but he's making me a better person.
He's making me the person I want to be. I've never liked a guy before who believes in God.
Every guy I've dated has been atheist and this time, it's the opposite. He believes in God, He believes in Jesus. He believes that being yourself is the only way. And if you lean on others for every single thing, you've failed at life. I've started to believe in the same things, without us even dating he's making me a better person. Other guys will tell me they like me, or any other junk and it'll be all worthless. Cause I know for certain a day, or a week later they will change their opinions. Or they'll slowly fade away from being interested in me. It happens, all the time.
But this one boy in particular is different, he is just what I'm looking for. I don't even care right now if we don't date. All I care is that I can make him happy, and at the same time be made into a better person. And so far so good.
